Day 46

Today Mom is really in the mood of speaking English :p
Anyway, last night when Charlene went to bed, Dada n Mom-mom were having a serious discussion about how to discipline Charlene.
Lately, Mom had been really exhausted taking care of Charlene and Mom even rarely enjoyed her own time. Taking an enjoyable showering has been a privilege. Napping has ceased.
It almost seems and sounds that Mom's liberty has been robbed by Charlene :(
I know this isn't true. My liberty has NOT been robbed by my own child.

After reflecting and discussing this issue with my husband, we begin to realize that MAYBE so far I has *volunteered* giving my liberty to my own baby without realizing it. When she wants me to hold her, I answer her need by holding her 'till she goes to bed. In the middle of her sleeping, if she wakes up and demands another holding, I gives what she wants! OH boy!!!
This ends up of having me not having my own time.

We figured out that I need to be brave and strong enough to let her CRY as she doesn't get what she wants (me holding her, in this case).
I know it will be hard because deep inside my heart, it's heart-breaking to hear her crying so loud that my parents start to pity her. Usually, to evade hearing their granddaughter's cry, they go to the traditional market and/or sleep.

Anyway, today Charlene actually had slept for 30 minutes starting from 8.30 in the morning after taking a bath. However, at 9 she woke up and demanded me holding her. I refused and gave her pinky instead. Of course, consequently she cried out loud. She continued crying even after I changed her diapers, wiped her sweat. She even cried when my dad chatted with her and tried to sooth her by rocking her tiny little body. My mom finally couldn't hold herself of not holding her up. I warned her not to do that. She ended of holding Charlene for about 5 - 10 seconds, but then with the pinky inside her mouth, Charlene went to bed.